Today's experience may be shot through with interruptions, cancellations, or delays, but they do serve a purpose, Sagittarius. This is a time at which things that have no further use are being swept away from your life, and you are going through a transformation yourself that requires you to be a bit more fluid so that it's easy to let go of the old and realign with the new. In these disruptions there will be magic moments to experience if they are what you're looking for.
I've been trying not to think too much on this day last year, although it creeps in a little here and there, no matter what. A horrible memory. An everlasting nightmare. And, although difficult to admit, peace to a person suffering immeasurably. On this day last year, I spoke with Damien for the last time, although I had no idea that it would be the last time. I actually had a nice visit with him in the hospital ... we had no idea what was to come.
I had even made a cute little poster board for him with pictures of Colin & our wedding, etc. I was going to put it on the wall next to the bed for when he came home ... something for him to look at everyday and to give him the strength he needed to fight this thing. Now it sits in the closet somewhere, dismantled and collecting dust.
I am exhausted now, mentally & physically. So off to bed I go, fingers crossed that I don't relive the nightmare ...
I miss him so.
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