Damien's Memorial Slideshow

I wanted to post the slideshow from Damien's Memorial Service ... although it's hard for me to watch, I think it is a very meaningful tribute to him.

Damien's Memorial from Charles + Lauren Films on Vimeo.

A big Thanks to David & Kelsey Pluskat, who created this for me.

The photos remind me of what a wonderful life he had, even though it was far too short. We always had so much fun together. He truly was my soulmate. I miss him everyday ...

5 years ...

Today would have been our 5 year wedding anniversary, although we've been together for nearly 10 years. It was a really weird day for me ... a combination of great memories & complete sadness. I picked up a cake from King's Hawaiian in Torrance, which is where got our wedding cake ... a yummy Guava chiffon with white icing. I then cut the flowers off of some of our orchids, including the one Damien has managed to keep alive & blooming for years, and my friend Tammy put them on top of the cake. This is actually what I was planning on surprising Damien with this year anyway. My friends took me out for dinner & drinks, then we came back to the house to have the cake. It was actually fun, sharing funny stories about the wedding & other stuff. It was a nice way to spend the evening ... good friends & good memories :o) I may not say it enough, but I love you guys & appreciate everything you do for me.

I know Damien was there with us.

Baby Steps ...

It's was 6 weeks yesterday since Damien passed away. I finally decided that it was time to do Damien's laundry ... just a small pile sitting in the corner of our bedroom. I couldn't bring myself to touch it until yesterday ... but it felt like the time was "right", as weird as that may sound. Now everything is clean & hanging back in the closet & folded up in the drawers. Baby steps, as they say.

When the time is right, my sister is going to have someone make all of Damien's favorite aloha shirts into a blanket. That will be so nice to have, and to pass down to Colin. Thanks sis :o) ((((( Hugs )))))

Colin's 18 month check-up ...

Colin is doing great ... he just had his 18 month check-up on Wednesday ... he's now 31 inches tall and 26.5 lbs!!! What a little weed!!! :o) He did have to get 3 shots, which did not make him happy. This was the 1st time Daddy wasn't there to hold him ... Damien always came to every appointment with Colin.

Also, Colin finally started walking last Sunday (September 27th)!!!! Here's the video ... I could only quickly grab my pocket digital camera, so it's a little grainy ... and I also held the camera sideways, and haven't figured out how to turn it around yet on the computer ... but it's super exciting none the less :o)




Go Baby Go!!!!

wondering ...

Such strange things have been happening around here. Today as I helped Colin pick up some stuff off the kitchen floor, he looked up and said "dada, dada" & smiled ... it was as if he was looking at someone standing above us ... it was both comforting & freaky! I keep asking Damien to guide me, to give me signs ...

This is just one example of many ... and I just can't help wondering ...